Good moments

A few months ago, my eye doctor's assistant gave me a hug in the office.  She had recently gone through a divorce and gave me some encouraging words.  She said that as time went by, there would be a day when I would think "I'm okay right now."  She promised that those moments would increase.  I held onto that hope.  Who knew?  She was right.  I'm having more of those good moments these days.

Last night, a man gave me a dozen beautiful red roses.  They have made our whole house bloom and smell wonderful.   The photo is dark and does not do them justice.

Today, Carson put up our Christmas lights on the house.  He proved once again how capable and willing he is to do the difficult tasks, and he did a great job!

Tonight I had dinner with my friend Melody.  Over Italian food, we talked about men.  We are both single women with children, and share many of the same kind of experiences.  We laughed a lot and got teary as well.  We discussed our loves, losses, and the places in our hearts where we keep all of those things.  I gained strength from this woman whom I have always admired.   A great evening of bonding.

Thank you, lovely moments.

Micah's 10th Birthday

Happy Birthday to my sweet Micah today!  Micah is my little supporter in life.  He always has a smile and a hug, and sometimes a little reassurance for his momma.  I always say that he was picked out in heaven and sent to me because God knew I would need his loving soul.  

You shine your light and your smile on me everyday, Micah.  I love you more than you know.

Art Museum

A lot has happened to me in the last few days.  I lost a longtime friendship.  I reconnected with an old and dear friend of mine.  I tried to get more sleep, to look ahead.

Today we went to the Springville Art Museum.  Who new that a building so beautiful was right under my nose this whole time.  I took some pics, of course.  I especially loved seeing my boys exploring the Garden of Sculptures.  Really beautiful, the way I feel about my children.

I'm proud of these guys :)  They challenge me.  They also bring sunshine and hope to all my days.

A Quiet Pain

The manilla envelope came in the mail while I was at work today.  It was nothing unexpected, just the judge's signature on my divorce decree.  A notice that my marriage to Ray is legally over.  I am relieved in an odd way, and glad to be on this side of things, instead of where I was 6 months ago.  Still, there is a quiet pain in my heart.  I think it will be there always.  Probably take it's place alongside the other chronic bits of sadness inside me.  I suspect that I will cry myself to sleep tonight.  I do a lot of that.

A new month

Tomorrow is a new day, a new week, and a new month.  I like the sound of that.  I will go into it hopefully and prayerfully. 

We love October at our house.  Halloween is next to Christmas in importance to my children.  The excitement, the costumes, the parties, the sugar coma.  I can't wait to start carving pumpkins.

We are also planning a Lord of the Rings party at our house in December.  A good excuse to invite friends over, and to get us excited for the Hobbit premiere.  We need things to look forward to, and this will be fun for us.

Happy Fall to everyone!

Church in the canyon

We went to Rock Canyon again today.  The colors are so beautiful.  We walked farther and longer than we have before.  The view is always a treat, and the time spent together priceless.

Hurry up, Hobbitsies!

I suppose it's my fate that as a mother of all boys, and the fact that I'm not very tall to begin with, I am doomed to be the shortest in the family.  Carson is taller than me now.  Micah is quickly catching up.  And Dakota . . . well that battle was lost years ago.

Truth

"Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens."

                                   ~J.R.R. Tolkien
                                             (Gimli)