Library days and nights

At work on Tuesday night, right after I had received the good news about Carson,  I saw the most beautiful sunset.  I was upstairs in the Junior Non-fiction, when the entire room lit up and a golden orange color swept over me and everything in the room.  I looked toward the window and saw this brilliant sunset (which the pic does not do justice to).  For a moment, I was just mesmerized by it.  I wanted to share it with the Librarian, who was helping a patron at her desk.  I said something to her, and then pointed at the window like Moses pointing at the Red Sea in the movie.  Yes, it was that good ;)  I swear, in the two minutes it took her to be able to look, the sun went down.  Just like that!  She looked to where I was pointing and saw only a dark sky.  I was only slightly embarrassed, and I'm sure she thinks I need medication, but I felt blessed to have witnessed this event.  It seemed like it was all for me :)  I dream big.

So . . . every muscle and joint in my body is sore and Ibuprofen is my friend.  I haven't shelved books in a years time.  My memory had forgotten how I suffered when I first started doing library work.  The constant standing, bending, reaching, squatting down, and pulling carts of books is tough.  I am grateful for this job, and the opportunity it affords me and allows me to work in a place I enjoy.  Thankful.

Great news!

Carson has been wearing an event monitor since mid-November, due to some chest pain and dizziness he was having.  Dr. Williams (Carson's Cardiologist) called me yesterday, and said that he has gone over the recordings from the monitor and does not believe his chest pain is Cardiac at all.  Woo hoo!  Dr. Williams is always thorough, and even had the rhythm specialist at Primary go over the test results as well.  There is no way to explain in words how grateful I am to have an amazing heart doctor for my son, and to have Primary Children's Hospital so close.  What a blessing it is.  I wonder how many people are aware of the highly skilled and kind staff there.  They live up to their motto, "The child first and always."

Happy New Year!  I wish that 2014 will be a year that brings all of us beautiful things.  This year, I pray for good health for all my family, healing for all of us, and to find the person that I know I am.

Saying goodbye to the old year

Tomorrow night is the end of  2013.  This is the time for me to post "the year in review' on this blog, and to wax sappy and sentimental about the events of the past year.  There have been blessings and friendships, and my boys have grown like crazy.  In reality though, I have spent much of the year in sadness or sick with stress.  So, what would I say to the old year?  How about "Don't let the door hit you on your way out!"  I feel so light now.  Thanks for listening.

Decisions

Some decisions are just very difficult, especially when those decisions have to be made alone.   Please let me make the right one.  It's almost a new year, and I pray it will be a better one.

Back where I belong

I have a new job at the Orem Public Library.  I am very happy!  That pretty much sums it up.

Okay . . . there's more to this story.  I have been working my tail off for Intermountain Healthcare.  Along with this, I have been stressed and not getting enough hours to support us.  I've also been trying to get a full time job, searching and praying for help.

A couple of weeks ago, I saw a part-time opening for a Page at the Orem Library.  I applied and my great friend Rynell  (who works there) put in a good word for me.  On Monday, the position was officially offered to me, and I accepted.  I will keep both jobs, but give preference to the library because they are offering consistent and set hours each week.

Along with all of this, I had an epiphany.  I realized looking back over the last couple of years, and all the heartache of that time, that I really started going downhill emotionally after I left my job at the Provo Library. A place that I loved and friends who had supported me through so much.  Yes, my wages became better by far and I thought I was making a good decision at the time.  Even so, I knew I was on the wrong path, and the damage to my health and happiness continued.

After I accepted this new position at the library, I felt so good.  It's a leap of faith, but I know now that libraries and I belong together.  I will work hard for them, and try to get a better paying position there in the future.  I know how corny this sounds, but while I was training today,  I was following Tammy down one of the aisles of books, and I smiled to myself and had the thought "I'm home."

Thankful!

Christmas day

Micah just came into this room, and said that even though we didn't have a large Christmas this year, as far as presents go, it's been one of the best for him.  I could not have said it better.

Our Christmas has been very quiet.  There were no visitors, except a few neighbors stopping by with goodies.  Our gifts under the tree were few, but meaningful.  Our home has been filled with the things money cannot buy.  We've cooked good food together, watched movies, played games, shopped a little, looked at lights, and talked a lot.

In the days leading up to Christmas, we have been reminded of our family and friends love for us.  The visits, phone calls, cards, and money for Christmas has been generously given.  My car has been fixed by a great friend.  Blessings of other kinds have also poured in.  One of those, I will be blogging about tomorrow.  God lives and he knows us.

On the other side of things:  We were up (they woke me up) at 6:00 a.m.  Legos were built, games played, toys put together, and movies started, all by 7:30 a.m.  Whew!  The excitement goes on every year :)

We had two trees this year, and lots of beautiful flowers given to us...

I tried so hard to keep some of their gifts a surprise this year.

 We are all big Doctor Who fans.  Micah's "sonic screwdriver" confirmed that I AM an alien!

And the games and building began ...

They picked out my Stocking stuffers themselves, and did well!  Of course, there was a Dr. Pepper and some green olives.

Merry Christmas to all!